ive finally found my worth and standard of work in this education path that ive chosen 2 years back.
To have your talent and hardwork recognized, the feeling is supreme.
its been so long since i last saw any distintions or good grades that im proud of. so many obstacles, temptations and stress to cope with. i've pulled off somehow.
im so emotional recently that i surprised myself. i was shock when i saw the marks.
Quality Assurance For Textile, i thank you Kyung Mi.
p.s. Kyung Mi is my lecturer from korea if u guys are wondering wth.
&! Monday, May 11, 2009
Arlecchino, the harlequin.
you must be him, spawned to decieve me. a game of lies and deciet we play, i ask for truth, i pray.
all i ever need is a shoulder to lean on someone to dry my tears and hug me tight.
Telling me its all over; you've got me to shelter you from the tide.
yet somehow i always met cruel ends. not words of comfort, instead i was questioned why.
'have you cried enough? its making a din.'
from then on i learned. women whom cry are uesless cause no man will care. if he cares, he wont let you shed a single tear.
the ones whom you loved most, will always leave the deepest scar. Women survive with money but fueled by love.
i once thought finance wasn't a problem, as long as there is love. show me the priceless love and i'll rejoice.
Draw me a flower if u think buying it is impractical. Take the bus and share our songs if u cant drive. Lets have a picnic if u cant treat. Watch online movies if u hate theaters.
Tell me i'm sorry, grab me by the hands pull me back and hold me, i will stop. Stop and listen to you. i will kiss you and forget wad you ever did to me. but this never happened.
love is killed, gone.
&! Monday, May 4, 2009
i bumped into an old friend few days back. i was questioned
' oei how are u! doing fine right? '
at that moment i dunno what went wrong i couldn't reply. i thought i had cope pretty well. masked all unhappiness and forgot what killed me weeks ago. but no, i was shocked. Stunned at how empty i felt, my reply was inadequate...
' huh? ok. doing well...you? '
its a very big lie even my friend saw through. i wanted to just walk away. besides this guy wasn't really a close fren. i dun even remember his name. he is rather irritating he continues the convo at the bus interchange...
H : u okay?! u sound like being shot, why alone? still haven find a bf ar?
J : huh?
H : since jon, u just disappeared. haha...3 years back right? but now sure attached right?
J : i just broke up not long ago.
H : huh. with who?
i nearly laughed. this guy is so kapo.
J : with a hairstylist, i dun think u know him.
H : ouh, i know that time did extention for u one right?!
J : omg! how u know ar!
H : i saw u at school with long hair suddenly! dun emo la.
J : hmm. ya.
H : hey i going tamp mall where u heading?
J : im going home...bye
and i walked off. i hate myself on that day at that moment. i was crying.