Designer: Miaow

Jacq here.
You'r reading my life
I own nothing except a fat cat
n drink wine
I love Guns & Roses
sometimes
Rock n Roll



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its proven like
Black* & white

Gemini Man & Virgo Woman

This match probably won’t lead to long-term love. You both have active and intelligent minds, and that might draw you towards each other at first. Unfortunately, he is a wild thing who brings out your jealous and controlling side. Gemini boys are incorrigible flirts who just can’t resist making eyes at every girl they see. They also have a bad reputation for being unfaithful. This will drive you nuts. He will hate your need to always know where he is and what he’s doing (and with who) and he’ll start feeling trapped. Yes, he’s attractive, but he’s just too unreliable for a level-headed girl like you. This is a mismatch. ( Source: Jellybean's Astro-Soulmate Guide )

With Gemini boy, Virgo girl will have a partner with whom to commiserate. It's nice to be understood, and that's the beauty of this relationship; you often think and feel the same things at the same time. Even the stuff that creeps you out or thrills you may be the same, and there's safety and comfort in your shared feelings. ( Source: FUNgirl - Astrology )

hahaha!

its a cold fact.

so believe wonders of stars!

HAHA.

Da da Daa da dap
Daa ta daa dada ~











happy mode(:




Today
Marc by MarcJacobs
Isetan Scotts
&
i've got...









we talked about sg fcuk'up weather
she giggles alott.
&
i fell for my model.
she's sugar and spice
plus all things nice.
root her for paris IT girl













ouh ouh &
nightrider was fun!
Unborn was disturbing!
Nekoneko is smelly!
smuggling MANNEQUIN home is CRAZY!


Emotions.
Memories.








i dun wan all these anymore.
grant me a memory lost.

please knock me down
or hit me hard.

i wanna forget everything.


Its deleted.


Silence that i used to yearn so much
had became deadly to me now.
All seems so miserable.
Im lingering to nothing but lost hope.

i feel like leaving from this fuck up place


i came across this page Janis passed to me in class today..

its a very bias and tilted statement and rantings from an american blogger.
but ouh well though it is INSULTING TO WOMEN
its rather hilarous.

lets read one more time!

Twenty-six things a perfect guy would do,
and other propaganda disseminated by misguided women.

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down!
When will women realize that they don't live on the set of a romantic comedy? Unless making you smile involves me playing video games while you cook me a steak, you're in for a disappointment. You don't think guys ever feel "down?" The door swings both ways, bitch.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
What? Why the hell would I want to smell a woman's hair? It smells bad enough with all the sprays and perfume they use. Enough with the conditioners, sprays, and cream already; that shit makes my eyes water. What the hell is conditioner anyway?

3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.
Translation: bail you out when you fail at life, but never bring it up during conversations.

4. Give you the remote control during the game.
This one is inherently stupid because it implies that all guys like to watch "the game." Since I'd rather be shot in the chest with projectile diarrhea than watch "the game," I'll assume the author meant something worthy of watching, such as Ren & Stimpy, in which case you need to put the bitch down if she touches your remote.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.
LAME. Who has time for this? Sounds like something out of a herpes commercial where some lady is rock climbing or doing something else which symbolizes her independence, then out of nowhere she blurts out "I HAVE HERPES." The music gets all serious and you hear a voice over "...there is no cure," cue inspirational music "but treatment is available." Then it cuts to a shot of the bitch on a beach and a guy runs up behind her and puts his arms around her. Good job dumbass, you're dating a skank with herpes.

6. Play with your hair.
Again with the hair? Women never play with the hair on my back, why the double standard?

7. His hands always find yours.
This is one of those things women read and say "AWW HOW ROMANTIC." I have news for you: holding hands is stupid. Women don't know the first thing about being romantic. Only lesbians hold hands anyway; allow me to explain. The only time it's acceptable to hold hands with anyone is if you're at a peace vigil. Guys don't go to peace vigils, period. If you do, you have to surrender your balls and get a sex transplant because you're a bitch; in either case, you're a woman, and when two women hold hands it can only lead to one thing as far as I'm concerned.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.
Bullshit. When I want something, I yell. If she can't hear me in the kitchen, sometimes I'll threaten beatings if I'm sober.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.
For your boobs maybe. I happen to have the uncanny ability to massage breasts. With my mouth.

10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
Let's face it: there are few things in this world more stupid than dancing. Except break dancing, which pirates and lumber jacks would agree is awesome. Other than that, dancing makes me envy cripples.

11. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
See, this is what pisses me off about women: they expect special treatment at their discretion. They want equal rights, equal pay, and equal treatment for everything EXCEPT when it comes to shit like this, then they want you to "react cutely" instead of, say, putting them in a head lock and making them eat ants and/or spiders while you give them carpet burn. Why don't women react "cutely" when men hit them for a change? Oops, I forgot, that's domestic abuse.

12. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
Any guy who would drive five hours just to see a chick for one is an asshole. If every guy drove around for five hours just to spend one with their girlfriend, we'd fill up the air with so much pollution that we'd all choke on the exhaust, get cancer, and then bake under the sun while our lungs rupture and we slowly die from internal bleeding.

13. Stare at you.
You stupid attention seeking whore, just buy the bitch a mirror, because apparently she thinks that you don't have anything better to do than to sit around and stare at her. If women ran the world, we'd still be searching for the wheel.

14. Call for no reason.
Oops, this one belongs on the list of "Twenty-six things women do that piss men off because they need to fill their otherwise vapid lives with something to make them feel like they have a purpose for existing as they eventually realize that they're pissing their youth away on stupid bullshit like fashion trends."

I can't go on, I'm going to go do something less painful like stick my dick in the oven.

My thumbdrive have been missing.
its not really the work nor assignments that im worried...

its the memories it contains.
pictures of my past all the way till the day i've met you.
when i was young,
when im a student.

oh gosh
i want it back.

Where'd you go?







Right now i have a sinking sensation.
i have recurring dreams for quite a while.

They are leaving me.

Who seeks the knowledge of future?
im passing down my deck.





its a saturday
& im decomposing at home.
my student went for a vaccation
when his exams are round the corner.

what a genius

now as his tutor im worried like nuts.
i finally knew how u felt mum!

so im bored and moody
plus i cant find any jokers
willing to go down bugis with me
to source fabric.
whada sad life
):



Plastic Surgery.
Agree or Against?




if i can look that pretty;
plus i have a blardy 5k spare cash
no pain no marks

i will.

hahaha jk.





Love.









Whats is love?

'Love is something you never regret,
even if you risk your life for it.'



i've never felt such lonliness for 3 years...
since that accident.


'so? life goes on.
Bad Kharma.
Once the seed of lie is being planted,
the truth will haunt you and take its toll one day'
- advice from Holy Father Jon.








how are you, Sirius?
its been 18 months since your last mail.
mum's birthday is coming.
i hope u are prepared.


On this day,


17th March.
at 12.40am


my world stopped spinning.
the earth stood still...





&
i died.


my photo was taken by a stranger





that stranger caught me walking along orchard





& he is a photographer






so HE HAPPILY WENT TO UPLOAD IN
WWW.flickr.COM




SO AM I LUCKY OR SWAY!??
I LOOK FIERCE OKAY
coincidences do happen,
say cheese.





Today was kinda hectic.

ioverslept
and woke at 11am
rush in toilet bath
- stare into mirror
- scream pimple!
- wash face
- pat makeup
- poof.

bustop
- ran for 969
- scream again
- bus stopped
- driver pissed
- poof tampiness!

mac
- valuelunch
- mcspicy
- munch in studio
- drape torso
- poof done!

bus again
- interchange
- push people
- fight for 969!
- poof yishun!

finally everthing slowed down.
im sorry i missed the reunion!
forgive me wynn ):

ouh
and i met Helmut the Cat.
A TomKat.
He wears a helmut and prowls along my corridor
spot him sleeping on top of the dustbin and planned to take a picture but he caught me in action
and awoke with such a shock.
like he had just seen mother mary on earth plucking armpit hair.

ouh wells.
i kinda like him.
Neko hiccups when she is dreaming.
Fascinating it is to think about what ya pet's dream is.
hmmm.


Argh.

Neko is so cute.
She's playing with herself now meowing at her reflection.

oh, i so wish that i lived alone like 2 years back.
2 years back when everything is fine.

i cant bear to sell you off
but somehow the practical part of me says its time to let go.

in months to come i would not be able to take very good care of you anymore.
now your worth is $800.
shud i say bye and hi to new found lovely owners?
how.
how?


Zutto konomama ja irenaitte?
不能一直这样下去.










Then?
Tell me what to do.


Today, tonight, ive hit my 101 post.
70% its all you.
joy or sorrow everythings about you.

im trying so hard to cope with everything.
somehow i dun think the medication helps at all
even if i had it with me.

its just mentally killing me physically.
think about it,
its unfair.

You've tried so hard to protect yourself but you've hurt me.
The past - think about it.
How we all started?
How you tried to hide me.
How you lied about everything.
How you told me about yourself.

Is this a good start?
Someone whom is willing to sacrifice for love?
Think about it.

I must be a fool to believe that i found a boyfriend
since you are always single.
A year passed
and forever u will be single from now on.

How did we celebrate valentine?
Or did we?

How did we celebrate my birthday?
You forgot.

When did we get together?
i think it never really happened.

How did we end up like this?
My fault.
Im sorry.

i've only just mistaken you as my boyfriend.
i will not do it again.

I use to take in everything, every single shit.
Somehow the limit has reached its peak.
Please, dun hurt me anymore now that all i want is to be friends.

i may need a little more time to forget you.
i might still call you.
just to listen to your voice.
just to tell u rubbish
just finding excuses so that u would talk to me

yes, i might be irritating but please forgive me.
just entertain me awhile more.
so please be nice just a little while more....
please.

And i will go.
I will disappear and you will never know this person again.


This song has been playing in my head like an old film on wheel rollers.
reminds me of the past we shared.
the moments you din treasure.

So many attempts
So many false hopes
So many chances
you failed to do a thing.

And yet i believe you would.
Excuses are aplenty just to call you.

But you took no notice.
i think i've waited enough.
Move on jacq.
Please move on.
Some how i keep telling myself i feel nothing.
Please, please not worth.
Some how i woke up in the night with a wet pillow.
Why?
Its been a year? a month? a week?
I dun know. Im lost.
I feel the pain now.
Its starting to take effect.
What have i done to deserve all these?

Some guys forsake their ego to please their love.
Some guys giveup their dreams to pursue love.
Some guys gaveup everything for love.

Littlest Things - Lily Allen

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt


Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you


Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?